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It’s been awhile

Well I haven’t posted in a long time. But I’ve made a lot of mistakes. And maybe this will be my therapy today. Or at least a letter to tell God I fucked up.

I got back together with someone I loved but someone I knew would hurt me. I got dumped naturally. I got destroyed with words. I got late night phone calls about how I should kill myself. And finally, his cronies sunk so deep into my subconscious that I found myself cutting words and insults into my thighs. Deeper and deeper until it wasn’t emotional pain anymore. It was the urgent physical.

So Lord I fucked up this body you gave me. And God I’ve spent so much time crying. Today I spend the day with a friend of mine from school. And he realized that I had been. And God wanna know what he said? “You look awful. Clean up. You’re embarrassing me.” He didn’t give a shit God. And I’m sick of being alone.

I know I’m not entirely coherent. The suicidal seldom are. But God… Don’t let me do this. Please God.


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weallhavegunsforhands:

HE DID.

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unvainly:

late night thoughts

unvainly:

late night thoughts

so-personal:

everything personal

so-personal:

everything personal

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I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest change in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.

- Humans of New York - Amman, Jordan (via 5000letters)

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chilled:

glow blog

chilled:

glow blog

(Source: thelilnan)

veganvibez:

do you ever feel constantly overwhelmed sad and lonely and you feel so annoying telling anyone about it bc you feel like a broken record who’s looking for attention when in reality you just don’t even know what to do with yourself anymore

She tried so hard to be brave, but sometimes she felt like she was just a little girl after all.

(Source: shaycormec)

pitifullypredictable:

Old School My Chem

pitifullypredictable:

Old School My Chem

boys-and-suicide:

It’s better than getting hurt

boys-and-suicide:

It’s better than getting hurt

kushandwizdom:

Teen quotes

kushandwizdom:

Teen quotes

(Source: totalparksandrec)